The Thoughts of GLP #rant

I woke up this morning very overwhelmed and anxious! For what?? I don’t know! I mean granted its pretty cold today and its raining outside. Lately a lot of unfortunate events have taken place in the world, and it’s been weighing me down! I really felt lost and confused about life! So as I was getting ready for the day I started praying for souls and other things that have been weighing heavy on me!

Then all of the sudden i started to pray over suicidal thoughts and those who may be battling this thing we call life! I want to encourage my sisters and brothers in Christ to stay encouraged!!! God loves you…I love you! Don’t let what you are going through, what you can’t control get you to a place where you walk in doubt, fear or depression! This is coming from a person who has and does struggle with depression and has for YEARSS!!! It always shows its ugly head up at certain points in my life!

“The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save.  He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”  Zephaniah 3:17

If you feel overwhelmed, lost, useless and just not valued! I am here to tell you, you are valued, loved, cherished! You may have made some mistakes in the past or even present! Do not keep revisiting those memories. It’s time to move on, start a fresh and a new. No one is perfect even though we try to act as if we are. I believe what your going through is for your purpose! Whatever that purpose may be. I feel like challenges that we face in life are not just challenges we go through to say that we went through it. It serves a purpose. Even going back to what I just said ” we go through” that just tells you that this in not your final stop. You are passing through to get to where you need to go! 

Be transparent with is our Heavenly Father! When your not sure about something PRAY!!! cry out to God and I mean CRY out to God. There is nothing like a good cry! Cast ALLLL your cares at the feet of Jesus! He wants to hear from you! God waits for you to communicate with Him. You have instant, direct access to God. He sees your hurt, sees your tears and knows all!

“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.  The one who fears is not made perfect in love.  We love because He first loved us.”  1 John 4:18-19

His love is so pure and it’s unconditional! You may think he isn’t there but he is! Talk to him he wants to hear from you do not hold anything in! You have this and will get through this! Push…Push… Push! The enemy will not win!

Remember: Self-Love is not selfishness!










YOU’VE GOT THIS! Stay encouraged, talk to God and/or someone who you trust, or even both!!!! DO NOT KEEP THINGS BOTTLES IN! and most important GOD LOVES YOU, CARES FOR YOU AND HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOUR LIFE!!! 



God! I need Direction… HELP!

You know you have a purpose, you have a desire but You don’t know where to go, how to start or even if your going in the right direction! God has you covered. It is time we lean and rely on God not self. If we seek self instead of God we are destined for disaster! Lets look deeper into how to get to where God destined us!! =)


Prepare On Purpose… FOR PURPOSE!!!

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Mark 13:33

 “Take heed, keep on the alert; for you do not know when the appointed time will come.”

        Lord, I thank you for this opportune time that we have to come together and hear from you. Lord I ask that whoever reads this post on ” Prepare on Purpose”, that you will continue to bless and speak to them even after they have read this. Lord, if there is anyone who is currently wanting to be used for your Kingdom but has lost their fire, has let doubt, defeat, the feeling of not being good enough, fear, timid, confusion to creep in or is not sure what exactly they should be doing as far as serving goes. I ask you to direct and order their footsteps, prick their hearts and show them what you have called them to do. Soften hard hearts Lord, and remove all hindrances that are in our life. Let our ears and hearts be open to hear from you on today. I give you the Glory, the Honor and the Praise in Jesus name I pray


  We must prepare on Purpose  for our Purpose. You never know when your time is going to come. When preparing for your purpose you must always keep in mind the tests that come your way. The tests are not here to distract you or throw you off course. The tests come to show YOU…. YOU. Show you areas that you need more grooming and maturing. When God decides its time for you to walk fully in your purpose you want to be as ready as possible for whatever may come your way. On my journey to finding and fulfilling my purpose I learned  4 Major keys on how to walk into my purpose and own it. I would like to share with you some reminders that I have for myself while I am continuing on my journey of Purpose: 

One purpose in life is to get close to God, One purpose in life is to glorify God, One purpose in life is to grow in character, One purpose in life is to tell others about Jesus’ love for them, One purpose in life is to develop your gifts, Do not minimize your role, Do not downplay the value of what you do, What counts is that you are faithful. 


                                                 Always Be Ready!

1 Peter 3:15 ; But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and be ready always to give an answer to every man who asketh you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear.

One thing that I have learned over these past few years in my walk with the Lord is to ALWAYS… ALWAYS BE READY! When you have a heart after God and you want to serve,honor,bless others and  just be a vessel that God uses to changes lives, you must always be ready. You never know when God is going to bring someone in your path that has been appointed to YOU to minister to, pray for, encourage, tell them about God, or even mentor, you never know who God will bring in your path.

Of course you will have days where your on fire for God and ready for God to move and just beaming in his presence. Then you have days where your mind is cluttered with the distractions of life and your focus is off, to the point where the last thing your focused on are kingdom things.

I can vouch for this!!! There would be weeks where I’m just soaking in the presence of God and just happy and content. Then I’ll have a moment where a situation arises and takes all my attention, and I lose focus on my purpose and start focusing on my problems. I would always blame the devil,  and say things like ” this ain’t nothing but the enemy, I was doing good, focused, happy, loving on God and now this or that wants to happen.“. I soon came to realize that sometimes you need a good old pop quiz. We tell God I want you, I want to work  in the ministry, I want to be used by you and when a wrench is thrown into your life its almost like God is saying let me see what my child is going to do if I let this or that happen. Do they really mean what they say?

Even our Character needs to be checked at times because when God uses you in a mighty way and uses you as a mouth piece for Him, He needs to make sure that when mayhem breaks, or things  that should break you and /or would cause people to lose their identity, it wont have that effect on you. Are you going to break character or continue to have that soft, quiet, faithful, humble spirit, and go with the flow? Even though you’re stressed, upset, anxious?!?  When walking in your kingdom purpose you will face many hiccups and rough patches, but you have to remember that the picture is ALWAYS bigger than you.

(Matthew 15:8 ; This people draws near to me with their mouth, and honors me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.)

                          “There is always a ram in the bush so be ready!!” 

One bonus key  that I have learned is when seeking God about what it is that HE has put you on this earth to do, it’s important to keep your spirit fed with the Word of God and PRAYER!. You need to be filled with more Word & Prayer than anything else. They go hand in hand and are powerful tools. Take time out of your day, find a quiet place and spend time with God. If the only time you can spare is time at work find a room (car, bathroom, closet, lunchroom ect) and just spend a few minuets. The more word the more revelation. God wants to download so much inside of us.

Do Not Compare! 

Galatians 6:4-6 ; Don’t compare yourself with others. Just look at your own work to see if you have done anything to be proud of. You must each accept the responsibilities that are yours , Whoever is being taught God’s word should share the good things they have with the one who is teaching them.

I know I have had my struggles in the area of comparing. I have found myself sizing up to people who have impacted lives and/ or are movers and shakers for the Kingdom. I get that ” I wish I had that calling or anointing” feeling. Feelings like that are common but we need to be careful.  I say that because you can see something and want it but its the motives behind it or the heart behind it that counts.  If your not careful the spirit of covetousness can slither its way into your heart and taint your calling. 

Exodus 20:17; You shall not covet your neighbor’s house; you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife or his male servant or his female servant or his ox or his donkey or anything that belongs to your neighbor.

Whatever your passion is I am sure that there are people  who you admire/ admonish and would like to be in their position. It’s ok to admire someone but when you start feeling jealous/ covetous, or even start to idolize them and try to live like them, that’s when you need to step back, re-evaluate your motives and heart, talk to God, repent, and then regroup.  One thing that we ( including myself) have to stop doing is comparing where we are currently to where someone else is. You do not know what they had to go through to get there, you don’t even know if they are walking in a true calling or walking in disobedience and self. In other words just ” STAY IN YOUR LANE and BE CONTENT”.

God knew your purpose before you were even thought of. Trust the process and enjoy the journey to your destiny. Everyone’s process is different. If its for you God will position you for it. It will all make sense in the end.

Be Content!

Philippians 4:11 “Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.

Yeah so what if  they have more followers than you and more comments under their posts. If God wanted you to be Instagram famous, Facebook famous, snap chat famous then you would be. I’m embarrassed to say this but tell the truth and shame the devil. I have even entertained the idea of buying followers ( I can laugh and see how silly that is)  but God dealt with my heart and had me checking my motives. God even had to check me and asked me are you doing this for fame & money? or for souls and my Kingdom? I will never forget how I felt when I heard that. I felt like I let God down. Purpose to me means sacrifice, but not the sacrifice as in my life is over but more of a joyful sacrifice knowing that because of my sacrificed more people can be effected for the kingdom.

Be content with where you are right now. God may have you hidden because the world is not ready for what he is about to do, or maybe your not ready, some people need to be dismissed from your company or even because its not the right time. Be Patient and just work on your growth and relationship with Christ. When the time comes God is going to BLOW YOUR SOCKS OFF!!!! 

                                                   STAY FOCUSED ON YOUR PURPOSE.

It is important that we do not go ahead of God. Yes, its exciting when you see your purpose coming together and you see the impact that you are having on others, but stay in your lane and do not jump the gun. I literally have this conversation with myself daily because I get excited easily, and there is so much that I want to do and so much that i envision, but I always have to take a step back and ask God if this is something that HE wants me to do. If you do not take anything from this today take this…. Before doing anything that you are not sure of concerning your purpose RUN IT BY GOD! GET THAT CONFIRMATION AND APPROVAL  before doing anything that could be out of the will of God.

I pray you got something out of this!!!!!

xoxo Z.M.

Please Be Patient With Me… God is NOT done with me yet!

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  1. a series of actions or steps taken in order to achieve a particular end.

Many of us are currently going through a season of processing. This season is very challenging and crucial because it causes you to die from  a lot of things that have been causing delays in your purpose. It forces you to become subject and answer the call on your life. The process causes  us to go through tests so we can go to another level. During this stage you will have different characters who are only there to slow the process. You may encounter, Sister Discouragement, Brother Doubt, Sister Confusion, Brother from the past so on so forth. They are only there to distract you,shake you, and break you, but don’t fall for their tricks. They were sent from the enemy to keep you where he wants you.

    James 1:12 (AMP); Blessed [happy, spiritually prosperous, favored by God] is the man who is steadfast under trial and perseveres when tempted; for when he has passed the test and been approved, he will receive the [victor’s] crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.

The enemy knows that you are not that strong in Christ and he still knows your weaknesses, strongholds, he knows how to keep you bound mentally so you will start walking in doubt and in fear. When I was in the processing stage I knew there were things I needed to die to, but I was afraid because I had become so comfortable in my sin. The process forced me to come naked and bare and step into the unknown. I know first hand how scary it is to have to let go of what has been so familiar and in a way a security blanket. God wants you to be naked ( spiritually) and let him mold and shape you. That’s what the process is all about.  Isaiah 64:8 Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.

I want to encourage you that when you feel like you can’t go on any further and you want to give up DON’T, DON’T give up PUSHPUSHPUSH deeper into the things of God. There are things in your life God needs and wants to break you from so you can be elevated. It is time we take EVERYTHING back from satan.

Even if you mess up and end up doing the same thing that your trying to get free from do not be discouraged. Remember this is a process it takes trial and error, it’s not an over night thing you will and shall overcome every obstacle that comes your way in the name of Jesus. You will have those naysayers who will say to you ” You say your trying to get right with God but you were  just watching  porn 3 days ago, or you were just smoking some marijuana with me last night”. Don’t let that discourage you, you have this. Next time you feel an urge and the enemy is sending suggestions open up the Word of God ( no better weapon than that) and start preaching to yourself LOUDand CLEARso the devil and all of hell can hear you and know that you mean business, your a force to be reckoned with and you shall be free. You can start off by declaring:

   “I will be FREE in Jesus Name”

“No Weapon that is Formed Against me Shall be able to prosper”

“I am MORE than a Conquer.”

“The Devil is a Liar, I will not give into the lusts of my flesh”

” I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me

” Who the Son set free is free indeed”


I’m going to tell on myself real quick. I know for myself I would get frustrated when I would see my brothers and sisters in Christ doing things, saying things, behaving in a way in which I knew that they knew better. I would have an attitude with them on the inside and have a full fledged conversation with myself internally saying ” just yesterday they told me that they were done playing with the devil and were going to get serious about Christ, but here they are not even an hour later they are listening to lustful, perverse, ungodly music.”

As I started to grow and mature I  would remind myself that they are still in the transition/processing stage, where they need to be pruned. On top of that I was not perfect either, I was sinning but just differently and not publicizing it on social media, my sins were private….or so I thought, God saw & knew all my dirt.

One thing I know for sure is that God is a gentleman he will not force himself on no one, so he may be trying to get your attention and get you to focus on Him, but if you continue to ignore and push him away he will let you be.

Many of us want to live for Christ whole heartily but we do not want to give up our old habits. The enemy has brainwashed and glamorized sin to the point where sin looks like fun and living for Christ is boring and miserable, when in reality it is  the opposite.

I’ve noticed some challenges that the body of Christ faces when trying to get right with Christ. The church today has accepted the worlds “values” over Gods standards for how the body of Christ is to live. The church ( when I say the church I am talking about the body of Christ, because we are the church) is now polluted with so much filth, from the pulpit to the door. So when it comes to getting right with God there is so much confusion and people compromising as to what is right and what is wrong.

Romans 12:2 (KJV)  :And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

This is why it is important to feed our spirit with the word daily so we can be able to test the spirit and know when we are being deceived. We need to let God work on us and polish us up so he can present us as his child.

We need to keep in mind that as we are being processed and renewed in Christ that once God has brought you out, transformed you and put on a new garment, you need to make sure that you do not go and put back on your old filthy garments. When the enemy tries to bring you back run and don’t look back.

God will do His part but it is up to us to keep up with our end as well.

 (P)urge- rid (someone) of an unwanted feeling, memory, or condition.

(R)efine- improve (something) by making small changes, in particular make (an idea, theory, or method) more subtle and accurate

(O)bedience- compliance with an order, request, or law or submission to another’s authority.

(C)onfidence- the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something, firm trust.

(E)levation- Promotion

(S)eperated- the action or state of moving or being moved apart.

(S)alvation- deliverance from sin and its consequences,

                                                God Bless

                                                                                               xoxox… Z.M ❤

Set Apart For a Greater Purpose!



Romans 8:28 (KJV); And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Did you know that before you were conceived in your mother’s womb that the lord had already set you apart and placed a calling on your life? In the end it is up to you  to answer the call or not.  Jeremiah 1:5 (AMP); “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you [and approved of you as My chosen instrument],
And before you were born I consecrated you [to Myself as My own];
I have appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

  I remember  like it was yesterday. It was 2013 My mom and I were on one of our walks where we talk and have our Mother and Daughter time and we saw a friend who lived in the neighborhood. We stopped and talked to him for a little bit, mid way through the conversation he stops and looks at me and tells me that God wants to use me in such a way that it is going to cause me to be separated from people. He goes on to say it’s going to be REAL LONELY but God needs me to be away from people so he can manifest somethings in me and fulfill the calling/purpose that he placed on my life.  Now at this point in my life I was just getting accustomed to hanging around people who were the total opposite of what I was use to being around. I was now surrounded with young people who go to church, are involved in the church, didn’t drink, didn’t smoke, didn’t curse, were kingdom minded ect. Now lets keep in mind that I had just graduated from college a year prior (class of 2012)  so I am still being totally delivered from my old habits.

When I heard  that, I was not sure on how to feel because I had dealt with so much inconsistency in my life that I was a little numb to the news of someone walking out of my life once again . Even though a part of me was excited because I have seen what God can do and is capable of and I wanted to experience it, but on the other hand  the idea of being alone and separated from my peers was not the move at the time. I was use to always being out and about,around people , just enjoying life the right way for once and now I had to sacrifice it all so God can do his thing.  After receiving the word that the Lord gave this young man to give me, I took hold of everything BUT the part of being set apart. So I kept hanging out and staying busy not giving time to God like I should have, so you know what ended up happening? God started to remove people from my life. One thing I’ve learned is that if you don’t do what God has called you to do, He will get you in a place where you have NO CHOICE but to take heed and be obedient ( however there are people who may still rebel and ignore God, but when you fear God you will submit and become obedient.)

God started to remove people from my life and I would see my peers on social media hanging out and having fun and I noticed that I never got an invite. I know we have all been in a position where you were you didn’t make the cut and was on the “Oops forgot to invite you list” and you find out that your friends had a night filled with fun and adventures but no invite was extended to you. Yeah, I’ve been on that list plenty of times.  So, now what felt like rejection from my peers brought me back to a sad/depressed state I was so devastated and perplexed on what was going on. This was just the beginning of my journey.

Deuteronomy 14:2 Amplified Bible (AMP) “for you are a holy people [set apart] to the Lord your God; and the Lord has chosen you out of all the people who are on the earth to be a people for His own possession.”

 I would have never imagined that the season of loneliness that I went through would have been as rocky and unstable as it was. When I say the different levels of emotions I went through LORD HAVE MERCY!!! talk about roller coaster. I was all over the place to the point where I started to think something was wrong with me, and I became sad and depressed because it seemed as if I could not keep friends, or just people around me. Little did I know that was nothing but the trick of the enemy to get me to stray away from God and distract me with my emotions.  In reality God was removing people from my life. Where God wanted to take me I couldn’t bring people, but I was not comprehend that in the beginning.

I would try to hold on to these relationships that God showed me I HAD to let go of. I was so afraid of being alone and feeling left out that I ignored God and all the signs that he was showing me. I ended up not just hurting myself but also hurting my walk with God which caused a delay in the process. When God calls you for a greater purpose you have to walk alone. You may love someone, love being friends with someone, spending time with people, but since God has a specific call on your life they can’t go with you. They can become a hindrance and hold you back and even could also potentially jeopardize the call on your life.

1 Corinthians 12:12-27 talks about  even though we are all one body we all have different assignments and just because you have a different assignment it doesn’t mean that you’re greater or less than another. Ephesians 4: 11-16 talks about different callings that help edify the body of Christ. Everyone has a purpose here on Earth, believe it or not we ALL have a purpose. Some of you may be thinking How can I have a purpose for the Kingdom of God? I’m not perfect! I make mistakes! I am not where I would like to be!  God will deliver you with your help of course and God will use:

  •  your experiences
  • areas that you felt were your lowest of lows to touch the lives of those who can relate
  • and help deliver those who have been where you have been.

You will be surprised with how many people have gone through or are currently going through what you have been through.

                                              My Loneliness is Birthing my Purpose! 

 Isaiah 41:10 AMP; So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

I can honestly say looking back in my season of loneliness (currently still in the season) it’s been rewarding. In the beginning I definitely did not see it as rewarding by any means but, by spending more time with God He has  shown me the direction of where he wants to take me, what He is preparing me for is something great, and I must trust him through the process. Now during my “Me” time, God definitely opened my eyes to see:

  • People for who they really are
  • Showed me what and who he saved me from
  • Took the scales off of my eyes so I would stop being naive
  • Showed me things about myself that I needed/need to work on
  • What i needed to mature in concerning my walk with Christ
  • My purpose
  • Most importantly allowed me to know God for who HE is and know him in a more intimate way.

We must be able to perceive the season because there are different seasons for different reasons.  When God separates you for a purpose/ plan and you’re not able to comprehend what is going on seek God’s face. Do not get wrapped up in your thoughts, emotions and what you can see with the natural eye, because you can easily become subject to those emotion if you dwell in them long enough. That is dangerous! When you let your emotions run your thoughts you can end up walking right out of God’s will for your life because you’re not focused on becoming. One thing about God is that there is a reason behind everything he does nothing he does is in vain.

God has to get you to a place where he can have your full undivided attention. Especially if you’re a busy body who is always up and running with everyone but never sacrifice time to be with God. We all have a purpose and God wants us to live out our purpose and in order for that to happen we must get in the face of God and just communicate with him through prayer, reading his word and just surrendering your life to him also known as submission.

” God isolates you so you can get yourself together. It may seem like you lost friendships & relationships but a better you is worth more!”

So I just want to encourage you today to stay focused on the call that God has set for you. If God is trying to get your attention and you can sense him pulling at your heart take heed, listen and be obedient. The end results will have you EXCITED that you were obedient and let God have his way. Your purpose is greater than anything this world has to offer or can offer. KINGDOM MINDED… KINGDOM DESTINED. Gets no better than that.

God Bless,